The Playlist

Hey guys! I just wanted to share the songs that I've been listening to ON REPEAT in my iPod while I'm doing my workout. Personally, its really important for me to listen to music that constantly keeps me moving and gives me the drive to move my body and work out tons of sweat! For this post, i'm going to share 10 songs that is on constant repeat and if you have any songs to share, write a comment for me or tweet me :D I'm always on the lookout for great songs..

1. W.T.P by Eminem

I LOVE THIS SONG! In case you don't know, I'm very very into hip hop ever since i rediscovered Mr Marshall Bruce Mathers aka Eminem/Slim Shady. This particular song really energizes me to the point when i step out of my house to walk to the stadium, this is the 1st song that i will press play. I mean come on, who doesn't feel pumped to do your workout when the first line is, " Now first of all, I'm the boss.."

2. I'm Good by Blaque

The first time i heard this song was when it was featured in the movie, Honey and believe me when i say that that is probably the only movie that i know that Jessica Alba can be defined as "hot". The beat itself is sickkk and you should probably watch the music video. I wish there's more old school RnB music such as this..btw, RIP Katina (she's the one with the hat)

3. Forever by Drake 

Jay Z called this "the best track and posse" in 2009. That statement itself alone should make anyone want to include this in your iPod. By the time you hear the beginning right till the end, i think you would know which one had the best verse in this song. 

4. Cockiness by Rihanna

I chose this song because of its beat and lyrics. The beat is definitely great when you are slowing down and sounds amazing when you do sit ups and crunches. First of all, the lyrics are bold and bold is an understatement. However, this song is my NUMBER ONE when i need that confidence boost and I'm seriously not joking. RiRi is definitely the princess of pop in my opinion.

5. B.O.B by Outkast

I think the only song that everyone know from Outkast is Hey Ya but you haven't heard anything else and thats why I'm introducing to you , B.O.B. The chorus is bloody catchy and easily one of my top 5 when I'm jogging or trying to quicken my pace.

6. Harder to Breathe by Maroon 5

I would never expect a song like this with the accompanying beat from Maroon 5. Adam Levine is divine in this song and initially, i didn't like the song but it grew on me and now i'm obsessed!

7. Lose Control by Missy Elliot

I love old school hip hop and before there was Nicki Minaj, there was Missy E. This song with Ciara on the vocals is absolutely mind blowing!! Ciara is one of my inspirations and i love how Ciara dances in her music videos and yes, i imagine myself as Ciara when i dance.

8. Get Right by Jennifer Lopez

When i saw the music video, i was completely blown away by J.Lo's abs!!! OMG, i want those abs and I'm almost there, i think. She still looks real good though and this is one of her songs that has the right beat and rhythm for someone to get those legs moving.

9. In Da Club by 50cent

Seriously, who doesn't have this in their workout list has truly been living in a cave. Enough said.

10. Won't Back Down by Eminem

LOVE THIS!! I'm a huge fan of Pink and when she was included in this track, i literally jumped up and down!!! And the message of this song is amazing!!!

A New Phase

Hey everyone! Its been such a long time since I've been here but I'M BACK! First of all, the title says it all. Its a new phase for me and i finally can say that I'm 50% on the road to recovery of my life. Fact is, I'm trying not to be too serious of a person and just try to enjoy life as it comes. In fact, I've been taking care of myself physically and mentally. I've been exercising regularly for the past month and lets just say that its a 1st for me to say that i enjoy working out at the stadium. For me, its more of a health thing as i realize a few weeks back, i could barely breathe and wheezing after walking up a flight of stairs. All this while, i keep telling to myself, "Oh screw P.E! I'm already fabulous as it is!"
Yes, i still keep telling that to myself but the fact is, I want to be healthy. I have been in TAF club throughout my years in primary and secondary school and the fact that i'm not your average Singaporean girl makes me stand out. I'm 1.61m and my weight was 100kg and yes i am not afraid to tell this to anyone.
Currently I'm 1.61m and 94kg!! It may be a big number to anyone who don't know me but its been a struggle trying to lose that bloody 6kg in a month. I've tried diets and I've tried exercising for a few days a few years back but i will always lose momentum and not have the drive to try. Back in those days, i tried those methods because everyone was criticizing my weight and my body every fucking single day to the point where i just gave up and just made fun of myself like how they make fun of me.
Now I'm 22 years old and i think i finally learn how to get control of my body. Its not about me trying to fit in a size M or trying to blend in with the slim and slender singaporean girls. Its about me trying to be healthy and trying to live as long as i can so i can spend more time with my loved ones and friends.
Consistency is the key for me, i believe. I still eat whatever i feel like eating but in moderation and i make sure i work twice as hard during my exercise regimen. Its not easy and at times, its really hard for me to drag myself to the stadium and work out and every time, it happens, lets just say a voice in my head will always remind me, "Its going to be worth it."
FYI, i hate running so i don't run like 4 rounds around the track constantly. However, i jog and brisk walk. I have my own pedometer and every session, my average steps a session is around 7000 in less than 2 hours. As of right now, I've never been happier with how i am physically. I know this post is very long but i just hope that whoever is going through something similar like my body image journey now, knows that he or she is not alone. I know its cliche and corny and whatever, but its a good feeling and only you and you alone can make this happen. Its your body and no one can control it but you.

Love,
TheFullFigure

Relapse

First of all, i'm still alive. My intention to start this blog was for outfit posts but seriously, i need to get this out of my system.

I've been avoiding everyone, especially my friends, because everyone has find a purpose in their life. Except for me.

For now, I'm not avoiding my family completely because they are trying to understand my situation but i know no one can help me except for myself.

I've been in this situation before and that was about 12 years ago but i manage to pull myself out of that situation myself.

I'm not looking for sympathy but understanding.

Right now, i'm a little lost and just taking it one day at a time. I'm not going to cry and I'm not going to be all emotional.

2011 wasn't a good year for me, in fact it was the most painful year i went through.

Only those who are really close to me knows what happen, so if you are curious, maybe you should wait awhile longer because I'm not ready to type the truth here.

The real reason that i'm avoiding friends is because i have hatred and anger towards them. Whenever i have calls or text messages, whether i want to go out or not, i would feel so angry and hate them till the point that i'm tired and would ignore their ongoing interactions with me. 

I hate it when that happens. I hate it.

People do drugs. People do reckless things. People cut their wrists. People do things that they know are wrong.

I imagine myself doing those things but that would hurt my parents, especially my mum.

That is not me. 

The first lie that i told was last year and i kept lying and lying and it just started to snowball into something that i feel its out of control.

That is not me.

I sincerely apologize to all who feel that I'm ignoring them or avoiding them.

Like those who have addictions, when you know that its not who you are, you go out and check yourself into rehab.

You separate yourself from the real world and you get help to fix yourself up.

Some people take months. Some people take years to finally be themselves.

I admit that I'm much more reserved than before. I don't like it.

All i'm asking is time. I'll fight my way to overcome this.

I've done it before and i'll do it again.

Sincerely,

Hazimah Binte Razali

INSPIRE me thursday

yigal azrouel/karen walker/parbal gurung/3.1 philip lim

Been busy like a bumble bee but life's been good. Anyways, i'm all about the coloured pants this time around. They really add a splash of colour in your outfit if one keeps the rest to a minimal and let the pants speak for itself. Well, what is your favourite color?